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Via Insta: A Journey From Self-Loathing

September 28, 2016
Journey from self-loathing

What a wasted life, those hours, days, weeks, years she spent pulling desperately at every inch and tugging at every corner of this precious house she calls a body. Too broad (shoulders), too fine (hair), too flat (chest), too FAT. Always, above all, too fat. This body that she analysed and scrutinised and then dismissed and mistreated and was desperate to get away from. Wanted to claw out of, so consumed by her hatred of it that it stopped her living her life. That it made her behave in sad, ridiculous ways. The body that she finally, eventually came to see works so hard every second just to give her life, to keep her breathing, to allow her memories, experiences and love. That she rewarded for so long only with loathing, betrayal, an all-consuming wish to have another. Any other.  That woman there now, she isn’t perfect, but she’s healthy…

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Body Image, Type 1 Diabetes, Videos, Wellbeing

VIDEO: Type 1 Diabetes and Mental Health

June 16, 2016
type 1 diabetes and mental health

It’s Diabetes Week. Hooray? It’s great that the focus this year is clearing up misconceptions, dispelling myths and setting the record straight. Education, always. So I’ve made a little video around a topic I feel very passionately about: how living with type 1 diabetes impacts your mental health. I’ve written a long and passionate post on the subject here, and I just think there needs to be greater emphasis on the fact that this is a mental condition as much as it is a physical one. I strongly believe that if this was addressed, the numbers would improve, and we potentially wouldn’t have the highest HbA1c figures in Europe. Potentially. I’ve spoken out to hopefully open up the conversation a bit more, so if this resonates with you please do let me know. I know there’s a ton of things I’ve missed off and I’m also no expert in psychological…

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Body Image, Type 1 Diabetes, Wellbeing

Dear Virtual Friend…

November 14, 2015
Life Tools

Oh hey, you made it! Amazing! SO nice to see you! How was the journey? Can I get you a tea? Gin? Thought so. You didn’t get here by accident. You’ve reached my corner of the Internet through a single click of a button, probably. Which is incredible, because you likely live a really long way from my little flat in East London. I do hope that now that you’re here, you’ll stay just a wee while. At least take off your coat and give me the illusion that you’re sort of getting comfy. There’s no need to look so worried; I won’t keep you too long and I almost certainly don’t have any bodies in my basement. Mostly because I don’t have a basement. Today is World Diabetes Day. It’s a bit weird that ‘we’ get a ‘day’ but I’m going to run with it. By ‘run’, I mean…

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Body Image, Travel, Type 1 Diabetes

Exposed?

September 17, 2015
Ibiza Sunset

‘Jen?’ I could tell by the inflection that she was slightly nervous. ‘Yeh?’ I replied snoozily, eyes half-closed, having slowed my reactions in the way that relaxing on a sun lounger in the Ibizan heat demands of you. ‘I hope you don’t mind me asking, but, what’s that thing on your back?’ I really didn’t mind her asking. I’d rather she ask than think that I was wearing an ASBO tag, as we joked later. We spent the next ten minutes having a really nice, curious and interesting chat about my pod-dependant type 1 life. I was, as in not unheard of when one sunbathes, in a bikini. Normally my concerns about being around other people in two tiny cuts of fabric extend to remembering to breathe in all the damn day. Because: cheese and wine for life. But this year there was an extra thing to worry about. Well,…

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Body Image, Type 1 Diabetes, Wellbeing

#DiabetesAndMe – 19 Reflections In 19 Years

June 15, 2015
Jen aged 9 and 28

This week is Diabetes Week, which I always find kinda weird, because every week is diabetes week really. How about Diabetes Life? But it’s great to have a focus and raise awareness in a concentrated way. This year’s Diabetes UK theme is #DiabetesandMe, which I like as I’m constantly emphasising how personal type 1 diabetes is to each individual living with the thing. Which can be empowering, but it also makes life very hard, as there really is no one size fits all approach to self-management. Anyways. Here we are. Last month I entered my 28th year on this earth, and also marked my 19th year as a type 1 diabetic. That’s a big portion of my life, nearly 70% in fact, in which my days have been punctuated by testing, counting, dosing and all the rest. I took some time (read: ten minutes on the tube) to ponder how…

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Body Image, Food & Drink, Wellbeing

What I Eat… And Why

June 9, 2015
Brunch

A little while back I did a day in the life vlog of me pootling about living my life and having a little natter about type 1 diabetes. You lovely people seemed to enjoy it, so thanks for that. In it I did a fair amount of eating. Obviously. I briefly touched on the sorts of things I eat and the relationship I personally have with food. So I thought it might be useful and/or interesting for me (hopefully not just me…) to chat a little about the principles of the kinds of foods I eat, and how my perspective on food these days is a rather healthy, balanced one. That perspective may sound pretty straightforward, but there was a point in my life where I felt completely controlled and entirely trapped by my relationship with food. If you’ve never had issues with food that probably sounds utterly ridiculous, but…

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Body Image, Wellbeing

Friday Thought: Compassion

April 10, 2015
Peace Emoji

Two emails have dropped into my inbox this week that had my heart in my throat a little bit. Sadness. Despair. Frustration. They both asked me the same question: ‘How do you keep your shit together?’ (Ok they didn’t ask me that exact question, but I’m utilising a little artistic licence on this one). Ohhhhh guys. Ignoring the fact that I definitely don’t have it all together all of the time, I want to explore what I believe I do have. It took me so long to find. Years, in fact. Compassion, as a human, for MYSELF. Every day I tell myself (and you have to absolutely practice this, and train yourself, and work at it, like anything else you want to maintain) that I’ve got everything I could ever need within me, at any given point, to be JUST FINE. More than fine in fact. Freaking bloody jazz-handed, disco-panted,…

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Day In The Life – Diet, Exercise, Travel and more | missjengrieves

March 16, 2015
Jen Grieves - A Day In The Life

*Adopts Beyonce Drunk In Love Voice* ‘I been vlogging, I been vlogging…’ This follows my post(s) about bouncing back from a day of type 1 errors, which seemed to spark a fair bit of virtual nodding that we pancreatically challenged folk have a LOT to think about. So I picked a day that hadn’t started perfectly in terms of blood sugars, and documented it to explore what it is we’re dealing with here. This was a very average day; I wasn’t gallivanting or holidaying or partying, and yet it took some work to stay on track. I also touched on my thoughts on diet, exercise, travel and other aspects of diabetes management. There’s also a healthy dose of my usual weird facial expressions. I don’t know why either. PLUS! A very sexy diabetes quiz – who knew that could be a thing?! – featuring poor unsuspecting Ian (although I think he quite enjoyed…

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